those words i was looking for

events like these - meaningless, tragic deaths - always stop me cold. i become stunned, dazed, feeling like the world should just stop. Whether it be of an individual - like Rich or my friend C's husband - or groups like waco, madrid, london, i just feel this need to stop the world and recognize this moment of pain. and yet, here i am at work, evaluating CMS options and so unable to see the importance in anything.